A Heart Like His

During our morning prayer time Connor offered up his very own prayer to God. “Thank you God for my mommy and daddy. I love them so much,”! Then my sweet boy climbed into my lap, wrapped his arms around my neck and snuggled his face into me. “Mommy, I would be so sad if God gave me a different mommy and daddy. I love you so much I could cry,”. Here was this precious boy pouring out his heart so willingly and without shame; the picture of honesty. So willing to look outside of himself and give thanks for his blessings. At four, he is so aware of the good life God has given him. In an age where grace seems lost on so many, my baby grasps the idea so perfectly. He does not take his loved ones and the fact that his most basic needs are met, for granted. Instead, he blesses the Lord with all of his soul. His attitude (most of the time…he’s still a 4 year old boy) is one of thanksgiving. I can’t help but envy the way he freely gives God such pure and innocent praise. My son whole-heartedly worships the Lord with such ease. It is a part of who he is. He was made, as we all are, to praise God. But my Connor has a gift. He is in tune with the Holy Spirit; they naturally flow as one. I quickly noticed that Connor’s words are not always his own.

Like the random, lunch time outburst during his little brother’s surgery in which he told my mom aka gram, “Hosanna to our King,”. While Connor was enjoying his lunch with gram I was pleading for God’s peace to cover me from the waiting room at Children’s Hospital as the words, “Hosanna in the highest” played in circles in my head. God heard my cries and He answered me through the simple words of peace and comfort spoken by my son. Connor’s child-like faith and heart for God prove him a willing and obedient instrument for God’s Spirit.

Reflecting on the events of Connor’s life up to now, the words prophesied over him by my pastor, during his baby dedication, ring in my ears. “He has a King David anointing. His life will be hard, but he will do great and mighty things for the kingdom of God,”. King David was a great warrior; a man of worship with a heart for God. Though he suffered through countless stormy seasons in his life, he kept his eyes fixed on God and he persevered. David delighted himself in the law of the Lord, keeping his heart and spirit open to the things of God. In spite of his human weakness, he chose to live his life in faith and worshipful reverence of God. David’s trust was always in God, regardless of his circumstance, and he was never shaken.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future,” Jeremiah 29:11.

Lord, help me to cultivate a heart of David in Connor.  Give me wisdom and strength as I raise him to always seek You.  Teach me to delight in and meditate on Your word so I can be a good example to my sons.  Make me bold and courageous as I entrust the lives of my sons to You; they are fully Yours, use them.  Let my life be one of great faith as I practice my complete trust in You and Your plan.  I surrender myself to You, Lord, direct my footsteps according to Your word and keep my heart and mind fixed on You.  As I grow in Your ways, I have faith that my sons will also grow in Your ways.  Thank You for my blessings, my heritage from You!  May I bless You with all of my soul and may Your praises always be on my lips.  I look forward to the day in which more of Your plan for both Connor and Blake’s lives will be revealed to me.  Until then, I will continue to live my life for You and lead my family to the cross each day.  In Jesus name I pray.  Amen.




Patience is Key

“God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation.  Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him,” James 1:12.

As I read this verse this morning I heard God say, “Patience is the key.”  

What is patience?
Patience is:
  1. The quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.
  2. An ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay.
  3. Quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care.

What are some synonyms of patience?:

  1. Composure, stability, self-possession; submissiveness, sufferance. Endurance, fortitude, stoicism imply qualities of calmness, stability, and persistent courage in trying circumstances. Patience may denote calm, self-possessed, and unrepining bearing of pain, misfortune, annoyance, or delay; or painstaking and untiring industry or application in the doing of something: to bear afflictions with patience. Endurance denotes the ability to bear exertion, hardship, or suffering.  Running in a marathon requires great endurance. Fortitude implies not only patience but courage and strength of character in the midst of pain, affliction, or hardship: to show fortitude in adversity. Stoicism is calm fortitude, with such repression of emotion as to seem almost like indifference to pleasure or pain. 3. indefatigably, persistence, assiduity.

My thoughts on patience:

  • Patience is a choice
  • Patience is a state of mind & being
  • Patience takes practice
  • Patience takes courage & strength
  • Patience takes persistence & hard work
  • Patience is perfected in the midst of trial & tribulation
  • Patience is the absence of complaint
  • It is the ability to overcome adversity
  • It keeps you going in spite of pain
  • Patience feeds on hope
  • It is the “fight” within all of us
  • Patience sets its sights on the prize
  • It succeeds against all odds
  • True patience does not exist in the absence of pain or hardship; it is in the midst of pain & hardship that true patience is birthed
  • Patience is fighting the good fight of faith without complaining
  • Patience is enduring in all circumstances with a good attitude
  • Patience is thanksgiving with perseverance
  • Patience is overcoming whatever life throws at you with a smile on your face
  • Patience is choosing joy over sorrow and hope over fear
  • Patience is seeing the single ray of sunshine breaking through the storm
  • It’s looking at that mountain in your life and saying, “No matter what it takes, I won’t stop until you have been cast into the sea.”

God, when I am weak, You are strong.  I can’t do this on my own.  I can’t get through a single day without Your presence.  You are the strength of my heart.  You are my peace and joy.  Lord, carry me.  Never let me go.  Renew my mind.  Quench the thirst of my spirit.  Satisfy the hunger of my soul.  Fill me up with Your word.  Breathe new life into me.  Carry my burdens and fill me with Your peace that surpasses all understanding.  Make my heart light, give it wings to soar above the adversity in this life.  Make me fix my gaze upon You alone.  My patience is being perfected.  Do not give up until You have completed the good work You have started in me.  I will hang on.  I will push through until the end.  Your faithfulness and love will bring me to the finish line.  I will see Your glory.  I rejoice in hope, endure in affliction, and persevere in prayer Lord because my trust is in You and I will not be shaken.