Letters

I’ve been going through old emails lately. Reminiscing. Reminding myself of the hell I’ve been through and the miracles I’ve been blessed to receive. I’ve been rehearsing the faithfulness of the One who walked with me through the fire and … Continue reading

Celebrating the Holidays with Cancer

It’s a new year and what better way to kick it off than to feature a guest writer! I pray that you’re filled with hope as you read Cameron’s story of his wife Heather’s healing. Remember, with Jesus, anything is possible!!

The best time of the year for me has always been the holidays.  I always enjoy seeing my family and friends, giving thanks for our many blessings, and continuing our family traditions.  After seeing our daughter Lily being born in August of 2005, my wife Heather and I were ecstatic about the holidays. We talked endlessly about continuing certain holiday traditions with Lily and beginning new ones that our family would enjoy for years.  Our planning was quickly put on hold three days before Thanksgiving, when my wife found out that she had cancer. It was hard to handle a 3 ½ month old baby and my wife’s mesothelioma diagnosis at the same time.  I didn’t know much about this form of cancer, but what we learned soon after made me realize that our once bright and hopeful future now looked very uncertain.  I hoped for the best, but all along, I was preparing for the worst. We still came together for Thanksgiving, and we tried our best to celebrate the holiday as usual.  Heather’s family celebrated both Thanksgiving and Christmas with us because we would soon be headed to Boston for Heather’s treatment.  After having our holiday meal, I had to endure the conversation I had been dreading for days.  This conversation consisted of how Heather’s family would be able to help us through this crisis financially.   We discussed all of our finances, which bills Heather’s family would pay for us, and even Lily’s childcare decisions.  Heather and I both had jobs before our daughter was born, but once we started dealing with the mesothelioma, our financial situation worsened.  New expenses that we never imagined were piled on, and we knew we would soon be down to a single income once Heather started treatment.  We were barely making it by as it was, and we would not be able to stay afloat for long.  The discussion left me ashamed and embarrassed, through no one’s fault but my own. I never expected to spend my Thanksgiving this way. After many years, I finally understood what this day really meant to me.  During the time I sat at the table discussing all of my family’s personal information, I felt ashamed and overwhelmed.  When in actuality, I should have noticed the love that I received from my family.  My family did not hesitate to help us in every way that they could.  They were willing to make incredible sacrifices of their own to ensure our well being. I did not see this for many years because I was blinded by pride, but now, years later, I see how very lucky I was.   In addition to helping us through this time, our friends and family also prayed endlessly for Heather’s health.  Heather’s mother, especially, prayed as much as she possibly could, and told Heather that God had told her that this disease would not take her life.  
Despite the odds that said otherwise, we clung to that hope throughout that holiday season and the months of treatment that followed. This holiday season, I realize how thankful I am for my family, friends, healthy daughter, and the chance to continue to make new family traditions.  
Despite the odds, Heather was able to beat her cancer with the help and support of our incredible family and friends. Mesothelioma has not been a part of our lives for over six years, and we’ve been able to enjoy many wonderful Christmases together.  We hope that our story of success against cancer can be a source of hope and inspiration to all those still fighting this holiday season.

To read more by Cameron please visit his website:
http://www.mesothelioma.com/blog/authors/cameron/

The Toothpaste Lesson

Today is Day 1 of my TMM or Total Mind Makeover.  Remember my goals from yesterday?  I am working on goal #1 today; loving myself more.  To love myself more I need to treat myself better, to treat myself better I need to think more highly of myself; therefore I need to change my thought patterns, hence –> Total Mind Makeover. 

When I woke up this morning I immediately began operating out of my old mind-set and I hopped on the scale and scrutinized every inch of my body in the mirror.  OOPS!  Not a great way to start the day.  So I began to think of ways to get myself out of toxic thought patterns and negative behavior and into the mind of Christ.  Here are my ideas:  1) Get in the word – CHECK!  I read Psalm 139 this morning, I am fearfully and wonderfully made; 2) Watch my words!  I don’t want to plant any more bad seeds in my mind.  I need to guard my tongue.  This is harder than it seems but it is CRUCIAL in every aspect of a positive life and a healthy mind.

Idea #2 brings me to a lesson that my mom taught my sister and me when we were younger:  “The Toothpaste Lesson”.  “The Toothpaste Lesson” was given to my sister and me when we were teenagers and we had some pretty sharp tongues.  We would say things and then say sorry to cover them up.  My mom would always tell us that we could not take back our words; they were always out there and sorry couldn’t always fix the damage we did with them.  But her words to us never really held any water until she showed us one day.  Mom came home from the grocery store with 2 tubes of toothpaste; 1 for me and 1 for Katie.  She made us sit at the kitchen table and squeeze every bit of toothpaste from the tubes and then try to put the paste back in the tube without changing the tube by cutting it open.  Of course we thought we would be able to do it because we knew WAY more than mom; but boy were we wrong.  We squeezed every drop of toothpaste out of those tubes and tried every possible way to put it back in but all we succeeded in doing was making a HUGE mess!  As she watched us struggle to put the toothpaste back into the tube mom explained that our words were like the toothpaste; once we said them they could not be taken back no matter how hard we tried.  

Though my mom did her best to instill this lesson in me about 10 years ago (WOW I FEEL OLD) it is really hitting home now.  Not only do my words impact my thought life and then my words and actions from there resulting in a downward spiral but they also affect the people around me.  My words plant seeds (good or bad) and instead of sticker bushes in my garden of life I would like rose bushes!  So, I WILL guard my mouth and watch my tongue.  After all, in the tongue is the power of life and death and those who love it will eat its fruit.  I would like to eat the fruit of life therefore I will speak life no matter how much effort this takes on my part.  I will be a good example for friends and family to watch their words as well.  I want my kids to grow up following in my GOOD example; that is why Jesus is mine.  

Heavenly Father, let the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing in your sight!  Let me speak life over myself and my loved ones.  Show me how to live my life with godly wisdom and grace.  Give me the mind of Christ and the strength to live each day for you.  Amen. 

 As a side note I’d like to brag on my wonderful mom who taught me this lesson so many years ago.  She is the best mom I have ever had the privilege of knowing (besides my grandma).  She did her best by my sister and me and she did one heck of a job if I do say so myself!  She parented with grace, wisdom, and strength beyond her years.  She taught me what it is to be a mother and for that especially I am forever grateful.

Are You With Us?!

Thank you for standing with us in this fight.  We have placed our faith in GOD and we trust that HE will deliver us again, HE is able.  Please recite these verses at least 3 times per day OUT LOUD…send God’s word to Heal. 

James 5:15 “The prayer of faith shall save the sick…”

Psalm 18:1-2 — We love you, O Lord, our strength.  You are our rock and our fortress and our deliverer.  Our God, our strength, in whom we will trust.

Psalm 107:19-20 — We cry out to the LORD in our trouble; and HE SAVES US out of our distress.  HE SENT HIS WORD and HEALED Bob!

Hebrews 4:12 — For the Word of God is living and active.  Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow.

We are sending the word of God into Bob’s body and he is healed.  We use HIS Word as a sword.  We give no place to sickness or pain, for God sent His word and healed Bob.

Father I make a demand on Bob’s bones to produce perfect marrow.  I make a demand on the marrow to produce pure blood that will ward off sickness and disease. 

John 10:10 & John 6:63 — The thief does not come except to steal, kill and destroy.  Jesus has come that we may have LIFE and that we may have it more abundantly.  The words that I speak to you are spirit and they are LIFE.

You have given Bob abundant life, He receives that life through YOUR WORD and it flows to every cell of his body bringing healing and health. 

I Peter 2:24 — Jesus himself bore our sins/sickness in His own body on the tree that we, having died to sin/sickness, might live for righteousness – by HIS stripes Bob is healed.

Jesus bore sickness in His Body on the tree; therefore Bob is dead to sickness and alive unto God and by HIS stripes Bob is healed and made whole.

Proverbs 4:20-22 — My son, give attention to my words; incline your ear to my sayings.  Do not let them depart from your eyes; keep them in the midst of your heart; for they are LIFE to those who find them and HEALTH TO ALL THEIR FLESH.

Heavenly Father, Bob attends to your word and inclines his ear to your sayings, he will not let them depart from his eyes, he keeps them in the midst of his heart, for they are LIFE and HEALING to all of his flesh.

Mark 11:24 – Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

We believe your word God.  We believe that Bob is healed.

Psalm 91:14-16 — “Because Bob loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.  Bob will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver Bob and honor him.  With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation.”

Psalm 118:17 — Bob will not die, but live and declare the works of God.

Psalm 103: 1-3 – Bless the Lord, O my soul; and all that is within me, bless His holy name!  Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits; He forgives all our iniquities, and He HEALS all our diseases.

Thank you Lord that Bob is healed!

I’m Standing Still

“Do not be afraid.  Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today…the Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:13-14

God, I’m tired tonight.  But it is not by MY strength, it is by yours!  Your word says to stand firm and I will see the deliverance you will bring me.  I believe this promise is for Bob.  I believe you have delivered him already.  I will stand firm in my faith and watch for you to move.  I will wait expectantly with hope in you and your word.  I know you will fight for him, you are already fighting for him. 

You are Jehovah Nissi!  Reveal yourself to Bob as his healer.  Just as Moses held up a miracle working rod, I will hold up a rod for Bob.  My rod is JESUS CHRIST!  I am holding up my hands, hanging tight and resting in you!  I will ENDURE!  I will NOT GIVE UP until we have VICTORY! 

Death has no sting, hell has no victory.  YOU WIN, God!  We win through you!  Bob is healed by you!  Thank you for healing him!  I will live in thanksgiving!!!  I will wait expectantly, with faith, with confidence in you and your written and spoken word.  You are the way, the truth, the life.  You are the giver of life.  You have given Bob life!  The enemy cannot take his life away.  Cancer cannot have him. 

God, you are our strength, our song, our refuge and our shelter.  Our help comes from you!  We will rest in you!  We will be still in you!  You will move on our behalf!  You are moving!  “Let the beloved of the Lord rest secure in him, for he shields him all day long and the one the Lord loves rests between his shoulders.” Deuteronomy 33:12

You shield Bob!  He is your beloved.  He rests between your shoulders.  You hold him up, Lord.  You hold my family and me up.  You shield us.  We are surrounded with your favor as with a shield.  You are our portion.  You are MORE than ENOUGH!  We trust you!  We will be delivered and restored to glory through you. 

Bob has Moses favor!  My family and I have Moses favor!  We have Moses faith!  God, let us be like the tribe of Naphtali.  Let us abound in your favor and fill us to overflowing with your blessings! 

Deuteronomy 33:26 – none is like the God of Jeshurun.  He rides on the Heavens to help Bob!  The eternal God is Bob’s refuge!  Underneath are the everlasting arms that hold Bob up, that heal Bob!  God, you will drive out Bob’s enemy!  You will drive out cancer and death!  You will destroy cancer, O Lord!!!  Bob will live in safety!  Bob is blessed, he is your child, God!  Bob is a man saved by the Lord Almighty.  You are his shield and helper, Lord.  You are Bob’s glorious sword.  Cancer will cower before you!  Cancer will cower before Bob because you live in him, God!  Cancer has been trampled down!  No one and no thing will be able to stand up against you, God!  Fight for Bob!  Stand up for him!  Since he rests in you, since he is still in you, nothing and no one can stand up to Bob.

Cancer must and will back down in Jesus name!  If our God is for us, then who can ever stop us?  If our God is with us, then who can stand against?  NO ONE!!!   NO THING!!!  NO SICKNESS!!! 

Joshua 1:4-9 – as you were with Moses, God, so you will be with Bob, my family, and me!  You will NEVER leave or forsake us.  We are strong and courageous, we are not scared.  You, God, are with us wherever we go.  Where can we go from your presence?  NOWHERE!  

Thank you for making the destroyer PASS OVER Bob because Bob is COVERED in the blood of the Lamb!  Bob is hidden in you, Jesus.  He is protected by you.  Bob has a covenant with you.  Remember that covenant and honor it!  Save and bless him with a long life and health.  Restore him and set him apart!  Protect him and heal his body.  Let him live! 

God, I will keep pressing in and soaking up your word.  I will keep believing.  I will keep filling my prayer bowl and walking in faith.  I will be obedient to you.  I will say “yes” to you.  I will live in thanksgiving until we see the manifestation of the healing that we KNOW you have GIVEN Bob! 

Lord, if this journey is partly for me then lead me.  Guide me.  Let me please you.  My prayer and fasting in January is coming to fruition Lord.  I am drawing closer to you.  I have FOCUS.  I am walking with you.  My family and friends will call you their Lord and Savior.  All will see and fear, and put their hope in you.  That is my prayer and I KNOW it will come to pass; you always watch over your word to perform it, your word never returns void. 

I love you, my faithful Savior.  I will forever draw near to you.

AMEN!

Create in Him a New Heart, O God

A Heart for Mommy From Blakey 2/11

“I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh,” Ezekiel 36:26. 

God!  Create in my son a NEW HEART, a WHOLE and HEALTHY heart!  God, I believe that you have given Blake a new heart.  A strong heart!  I claim it now!  I believe it!  My faith HAS HEALED Blake!  He is my son and I am claiming healing for him just as I claimed your healing for Connor.  You created in Connor a new lung.  You gave him life when there was only death and sickness.  You gave him health.  I believe that you have done the same for Blake!  I REFUSE to accept less!  We will see with our eyes tomorrow at the doctor what we know in our hearts to be true!  What I see in my faith, in my spirit, I will see with my eyes! 

Lord you are FAITHFUL!  You are TRUE!  You uphold ALL of your promises!  You promised life and health and that is ALL that I accept for my children, for my husband, for our family, for myself!  Sickness, imperfections, defects, diseases and death have NO place here!!  Where you are, there can be no darkness Lord!  You live in Blake!  You are Jehovah Rapha.  You are the great physician!  You have healed Blake’s heart.  He is made whole in you.  He will tell of your mighty works.  He will praise you alone, O Lord, as will Connor, Nick, and I!  Blake will tell his generation what you have done for him.  To you be all the glory!  You reign!  Glory in the highest you reign!  Every knee shall bow and every tongue proclaim that Jesus reigns!

You are mighty to save Lord.  Ventricular septal defects have NO PLACE in my son’s heart!  You have saved Blake!  We accept his healing!  I do not accept anything but the best for him!  Though the defect is not hindering his growth or causing any other problems it is not of God!  I do not accept anything for my son that is not of God.  Lord God you are exalted forever.  Your name is above all names.  Your name is POWER!  I proclaim this power to be used to heal my son’s heart and I BELIEVE that he is HEALED! 

Thank you God for a manifestation of the healing I believed for!  Thank you that you created in my son a NEW heart!  I LOVE YOU GOD!!!!

Anointed!

“Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ.  He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come,” 2 Corinthians 1:21-22.

God,

You have anointed Bob!  You put your seal of ownership on him!  He is yours!  Satan, I speak to you and tell you to get back!!  Bob is God’s child.  He has been bought by Christ’s holy and anointed blood.  Bob has been redeemed!  Bob accepts Christ’s redemption.  He accepts Christ as his Lord and savior!  Satan, you have no power over him!  Bob’s body is God’s temple and where God lives you cannot!  Where God is there can be no darkness.  Cancer is yours Satan, take it back to hell with you!  Bob is healthy and made whole by God the Father!  Bob is made whole through his Lord Jesus Christ who died to take his sins and sickness, to carry the burden.  Jesus is Bob’s King!  He is Bob’s Jehovah-Rapha! 

I call on God, I call on his mighty power.  Save Bob, Lord!  Bring him through this battle a changed man.  Bob is stout-hearted and courageous.  Bob is full of un-waivering faith.  Bob is as bold as a lion for you God!  Bob is whole, healthy, complete, and alive!  Let Bob live many more, honor-filled years on this earth as your servant!  You put your spirit in Bob’s heart as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come!  God I know what is to come in this battle!  VICTORY and HONOR for you!  HEALING, HEALTH, and LIFE for Bob! 

AMEN!

Filling my Prayer Bowl!

God,

I am praying so that my prayer bowl will overflow!  I will pray without ceasing from now on until I see Bob’s healing manifestation.  Until thunder and lightning peal across the sky in a glorious display of your awesome power!  Whether you are being obvious or hiding, God; I will recognize your movements!  You are training me and I thank you.  You are revealing yourself to me, confiding in me, you are answering my prayers. 

You are faithful to all of your promises and loving toward all you have made.  You love Bob!  You made him, Lord.  According to your word, Bob is fearfully and wonderfully made.  Cancer has no place in him, it was not a part of Bob’s design.  Root it out of his body!  It is an evil gift of the enemy.  It is a gift we do NOT accept.  We only accept gifts from you Lord, gifts of life and health!  Bob has life and health in you!  Bob is healed of cancer and he has a long life on earth ahead of him. 

God, teach Bob to seek wisdom.  Teach him to love it.  For in wisdom’s hands are LONG LIFE and riches and honor.  Give Bob a long life!  Give him wisdom and understanding so that he may live a long and fulfilled life serving you.  God, this healing is all for your glory!  Bob will tell of your mighty works!  Many will see, and fear, and put their trust in you!  Eyes will be opened and hearts will be forever changed by this.  By your might, Lord!  You are Jehovah-Nissi, God!  You are our VICTORY!  You reign!  Glory in the highest, you reign.  Every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that you are God.  Every tongue will confess that Jesus reigns!  You are robed in majesty.  You are MIGHTY TO SAVE!  Save us Lord!  Save Bob! 

Lord, let the anointing that we perform be seen as a symbol of our faith.  Let it be seen as “setting apart for you to be used for your purpose”!  Recognize this covenant and keep it God.  We have made a covenant with you.  Make a covenant with us.  Like the smearing of blood on the door posts during the 1st Passover, we are smearing the blood of the lamb on our heads, God.  Bob is covered with the blood of the lamb!  God we are asking that the Angel of Death PASS OVER our homes, our bodies!  We are asking that Bob is passed over!  See this covenant with us and remember!  We are your children, Bob is your child; he is set apart for you.  Save him!  When cancer comes to take Bob’s life it MUST and WILL PASS OVER!!!!  Bob is YOURS!  Bob is marked with the blood of Christ.  He is marked with the “Anointed One’s” life blood, his redeeming blood.  The Messiah, the one true Christ has marked Bob for his own, to be used for his purpose.  Bob is saved!  He is saved from death.

Grow his faith, God.  Let Bob increase in wisdom, and stature, and favor with God and man.  Let him grow as Jesus did.  As he grows let him draw near to you.  Hold him.  Be his strength, be his peace.  His Elohim; his power and might!  Be his Jehovah-Rohi; lead him, good shepherd.  Be his Jehovah-Shalome, his prince of peace.  Most of all be his Jehovah-Rapha, the Lord his healer!  God I believe you will make your names known to Bob.  You will reveal yourself to Bob as all of these wonderful things.  There are so many parts of you, Lord that we have yet to grasp.  But I pray and I believe that you will reveal yourself to us.  You will confide in us.  You will show yourself to us as we continue to draw near to you.  We will continue to go where you lead.  We will always follow you. 

God, speak to my mom.  Continue to put her on the hearts of those around us.  Put her needs on the hearts of powerful intercessors, powerful prayer warriors.  Let them rise up with shields and swords.  Let them surround her.  Let them fight the good fight of faith in her stead if it is your will.  May your will be done.  Give my mom the tools to succeed, cover her in your love and be her Jehovah-Shalome.  Be real to her, be real to Bob.  Be real to me, God.  Wrap Bob in your arms.  Hide him under your wings, set his feet upon a rock.  Let your hugs be literal to Bob and my mom.  Let them truly feel your presence, Lord.  Envelope them!  Make your face shine upon them and grant them peace. 

My family needs you, God.  Be our prince of peace!!  Give us peace that surpasses all understanding.  Speak to us so we will hear you and teach us to listen.  We love you, Lord.  Love us in a tangible way.

Lord, your presence is enough to meet all of our needs.  You are always more than enough.  I believe in you, I believe in your power.  I have great faith, Lord!  Put me in the right frame of faith and the right place in my life.  Put me where you want me.  I live to serve you, Lord.  Thank you for being faithful and for revealing yourself to me!  Thank you for the healing that I know Bob has received!  I am living in thanksgiving for him!  I know our manifestation will present itself in YOUR TIME and your timing is always perfect, Heavenly Father.  You are Jehovah-Rapha and you reign!