Connor’s Story

When I was 28 weeks pregnant with my first child I was referred to a specialist at Presbyterian St. Luke’s Hospital in Denver after my OB saw something strange on an ultrasound.  After an initial ultrasound at St. Luke’s, Dr. Richard Porreco, discovered a CCAM (Congenital Cystic Adenomatoid Malformation) in my son’s right lung.  The CCAM was displacing his good lung tissue and his heart leading to hydrops.  According to doctors, my son, Connor, had less than a 50% chance of being born alive.

Connor by Porreco PG 2

This is an excerpt by the doctor that was in charge of my care at Presbyterian St. Luke’s – I am the patient he is referring to in this article and that is the ultrasound of my son’s chest

As if that information wasn’t bad enough, I was immediately admitted to the hospital and put on bed rest until I gave birth. They didn’t seem to care that at this point I was only a little over halfway through my pregnancy. Little did I know, I was in for six, horrendous weeks of bed rest during which I endured endured seven, painful, in-womb surgeries involving large needles and little to no way to ease the pain in order to drain the CCAM in my son’s chest and remove excess amniotic fluid from me.

Connor by Porreco PG 3

This shows Connor’s diagnosis – Type 1 congenital cystic adenomatoid malformation with mediastinal shift causing hydrops. At 28 wks 6 days pregnant Dr. P performed a fetal thoracentesis (stuck a huge needle through my stomach into Connor’s chest to drain the cyst) and drained 80 cc of fluid off of Connor. Then again at 29 wks and 3 days they drained 88 cc of fluid. At 30 wks 5 days Dr. P drained 700 cc of amnio fluid from me as Connor was unable to swallow it like normal babies do. All in all Dr. P drained my amnio fluid twice and performed 5 in-womb surgeries on Connor. I went into labor at 34 weeks and 4 days. His apgars were terrible – basically, he was not stable and chances of survival looked grim

During that time, I was told over and over by medical staff that my son was gravely ill and that there was a very slim chance of survival for him.

Connor by Porreco PG 4

The natural history of Connor’s diagnosis is one of in utero or early neonatal death

It’s like I was being punched in the stomach every single day. I was scared, angry and overwhelmingly lonely though never alone. I spent a long time feeling sorry for myself and blaming myself for what was happening with my baby and in the beginning, I threw tantrums and fought my “jail sentence”. I wanted nothing more than to escape. I repeatedly asked to leave the hospital just to go to church or see the outside world. I think the doctors thought I was crazy. I think they were right. I didn’t fully comprehend what was happening. I was living in a nightmare that I so desperately wanted to wake up from but I never did. I questioned God and repeatedly asked him, “Why me?” At some point I made a decision to trust God and to put all of my hope in him. The truth was, I had no other hope. No other choice and I’d seen some pretty amazing healing miracles in my family already. The seed of faith was there I just had to water it. So I took control of my situation. I chose to fight. I chose to trust God in the face of death. I chose to trust Him and deny my fears and doubts. I chose to live in a realm outside of the natural. I dove head first into the unknown with God. The God of my childhood, the God of my mother, the God that would soon be my own.

I prayed God’s word over my son all day, every day. I spoke life over him. I praised God for the healing that I believed we would receive speaking what was not true as though it were true (Romans 4:17). Before every in-womb surgery I believed that the CCAM would be gone and I thanked God for Connor’s immediate healing. While that nasty thing came back every single time I didn’t lose faith and become angry with God. No. Instead, I went back to my room, my prison cell, and as I laid in bed hooked up to monitors and contracting from the recent trauma to my uterus, I thanked God. Yep. I thanked Him. I chose to praise Him I chose to praise my God in the most horrific and terrifying storm of my life because He was still God regardless of my circumstance. He was still in control. He was still good; still sovereign. My condition didn’t nullify His position. It was only meant to magnify Him more. To put His glory on display. I marched on. I didn’t curl up and die. I didn’t give up. I looked up. I kept my eyes on my Father. I looked to Jesus, the author and perfecter of my faith. I endured.

Finally, after I quit fighting, after I surrendered everything to God my jail sentence ended just as suddenly as it had begun. On January 9, 2008 Nick and I would welcome our six week premature, little miracle, Connor Isaac, into the world, but not without one more fight. (tell quick story of my labor and almost dying)

The doctors warned us that Connor would not cry after delivery but he cried, PRAISE GOD! That swollen, one-eared, gravely-ill, little fighter cried. He cried the weakest cry I had ever heard but it was his and it was beautiful. Unfortunately, the evil cyst inside of my sweet boy was not gone and as Dr. Poreeco was stitching me up the nurses rushed Connor over to the corner of the room to get it drained and then they rushed Connor to the NICU (neonatal intensive care unit). Not long after he was delivered, a surgeon came to my room asking for consent to perform surgery.  She told us that Connor was not stable and the CCAM needed to be removed immediately.  She also informed us that the odds of him surviving surgery were very bad but she would do her best; as she spoke she was shaking, she radiated fear.  At that point I was especially glad that I have been redeemed, that my hope and trust are not in man, but in the one true, living God.  My husband signed the consent papers and she left.

Newborn Connor

My sweet baby boy’s newborn picture

Once again we turned to God.  We began to pray out loud in the spirit and tell the enemy that Connor was a child of God, that he could not have him, and that Connor was healed.  We called on God again and believed that Connor would live through the surgery.  Only a few minutes later the surgeon returned, and with good news!  The CCAM disappeared!!!  They did an ultrasound of Connor’s chest to determine where they would need to operate and they couldn’t find the CCAM; and better yet, Connor stabilized!  Our God is SOOO AWESOME!!!

Three days later the CCAM was back but this time Connor was stable enough for surgery.  But I was not so sure.  To me, allowing Connor to have surgery would be admitting that God was not in control, that he could not heal my baby.  But God had a plan, he made something wonderful happen.  My pastor visited me in the hospital.  He asked to pray over Connor and my husband and I heartily accepted his request.  We took him to Connor’s isolette, his temporary baby bed.  Pastor R. laid hands on our son, claiming God’s healing promises for him, calling down power from Heaven, and taking his place beside us on our battlefield for Connor’s life.  I admitted to my pastor my apprehension in regards to Connor having surgery and the blow it could issue to my faith.  He gently reminded me that God uses people and their gifts for his good.  God works through people.  Sweet relief!  I immediately felt my guilt subside; Connor would have surgery and I would still put my trust in God to bring him through.  On January 12, 2008 my precious son became the 1st  baby to undergo a laparoscopic lung surgery; 2/3 of his right lung were removed and afterward Connor spent 1 month in the NICU.

During that month my family and I prayed over him, anointed him with oil, and continued to speak in faith.  I used to anoint Psalm 145 in my Bible and read it over and over and over to Connor.  God watched over his word to perform it, his word did not and never will return void.  Connor came home on February 8, 2008; such an incredible gift from God!  The doctors said that Connor would be on oxygen for 1 year and Connor came off of oxygen just shy of 3 months old!  We were told that Connor may always have just 1/3 of a right lung but at 1 year old Connor was discharged from his lung surgeon’s care because his lung re-grew!

Letters

I’ve been going through old emails lately. Reminiscing. Reminding myself of the hell I’ve been through and the miracles I’ve been blessed to receive. I’ve been rehearsing the faithfulness of the One who walked with me through the fire and … Continue reading

Prayer Challenge – Day 7

“You, Lord, are my choice, and I will obey you.  With all my heart I beg you to be kind to me, just as you have promised.  I pay careful attention as you lead me, and I follow closely.  As soon as you command, I do what you say,” Psalm 119:57-60.

Father, may my family and I be at rest in Your presence as our hearts are kept safe and pure in Your loving hands.  Let us always worship You with all of our hearts and do not let us walk away from Your life-giving commands.  Teach us to treasure Your word above all else and let it keep us from sinning against You.  Let my family and I always praise You, Lord.  Don’t let us question Your character; You are always good and Your motives are always pure!  Your ways are righteous and You deal justly with Your children.  My family and I will never forget that, God.  We will never let our circumstances tarnish Your good name.  Our love for You will never be spoiled and our hearts will remain pure and fixed on You and Your laws. 

Give us wisdom and understanding in abundance.  Let us continually discover the wonders of Your law.  Point out your rules to us with kindness and patience and we will not disobey even one of them.  Direct us by Your commands!  We love to do what You say.  Just as David said, make my family and me want to obey you, rather than to be rich.  Take away our foolish desires, and let us find life by walking with you.  We are Your servants!  Do for us as You have promised to do for those who worship You.  In Jesus’ name.  Amen.

Purity:

  • 1 Timothy 1:5 – “The purpose of my instruction is that all believers would be filled with love that comes from a pure heart, a clear conscience, and genuine faith.”

Prayer:  Connor and Blake are filled with love; love that comes from their pure hearts, clear consciences and genuine faith.  My sons are quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that You desire. Connor and Blake turn from all moral filth and evil and they humbly accept Your word that has been planted in them.  Save them, Lord! 

Keep their thoughts and actions pure and wholesome.  Lead them not into temptation but into a deeper understanding of Your values and of the desires that You have planted in their hearts.  Root out anything that the enemy has placed in my sons hearts or minds in an attempt to destroy them.  Their hearts and minds are guarded in Your Son, Jesus.  My sons are under Your covering, Lord.  They are protected from impurity and lawlessness in all forms.  They walk in the light of Your truth at the edge of this world; they do not conform to it.  Make them determined to follow after You and Your laws, God.  Let them be caught when they do wrong and speak renewal and healing into their hearts, minds, and souls in the places in which they are broken.  Help them to strengthen themselves in You from a young age, God.  

Do not let them rely on anyone else to help them cultivate a loving and devoted relationship with You.  Make them realize that it is up to them to follow You and get to know You better.  Plant a desire to know You more in Connor and Blake’s hearts and let them stick by each other in the face of resistance; let them encourage each other in You, God.  Two are stronger than one; my sons are strong because they do not depart from one another or from You.

  • 1 John 3:3 – “And all who have this eager expectation will keep themselves pure, just as he is pure.”

Prayer:  Connor and Blake live in eager expectation of Your second coming, Lord Jesus.  In their expectation they keep themselves pure just as You are pure.  Help them.  Staying pure and clean in this blemished and dirty world is difficult.  Let my sons lean on You, Jesus.  Continually intercede for them and plead their case to Your Father as You sit at His righteous right hand.  I pray that Connor and Blake would be white as snow and that their hearts would be clean and upright in Your sight, Oh God.  See my sons through the righteousness bought for them by Your Son.  They are cloaked in forgiveness and grace.  Your mercy has been poured over them like cleansing waters, washing away the dirt of sin.  Let Connor and Blake not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth. 

  • James 1:27 – “Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you.”

Prayer:  Father, Connor and Blake practice pure and genuine religion in Your eyes.  They care for orphans and widows in their distress; they do not let the world corrupt them.  My sons are not concerned with accumulating worldly possessions, God.  Instead, they are concerned with being the hands and feet of Your ministry on this earth.  Let them give generously to the least of these.  Let them love as You love.  Send my sons to the hurting and the helpless in this world, Father.  Break their hearts for what breaks Yours, God, and convict them to make a difference!  Cultivate a kind and compassionate spirit in each of them.  Make my sons good stewards of their finances and the provisions that You have blessed them with so that they may bless others.  With cheerful hearts Connor and Blake will give You more than their first fruits.  They will give to You and bless Your Kingdom, Lord, especially when their flesh would tell them that they have nothing to give.  Let my sons give out of their emptiness and lack in each area of their lives and give it back to them in good measure; create a cycle of blessing, Lord. 

  • Philippians 4:8 – “And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.”

Prayer:  Connor and Blake fix their thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable.  They only think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.  Lord, I ask You to continually fill them with the knowledge of Your will through all the wisdom and understanding that Your Spirit gives.  Let them live lives worthy of Your Son’s sacrifice.  In every way my sons will bear fruit in every good work they do and they will grow in the true knowledge of You, God.  Strengthen them with all power according to Your glorious might so that they may have great endurance and patience.  Help them to give joyful thanks to You, Father, because You have given them an eternal inheritance; they are part of Your holy people in Your Kingdom of Light.  You rescued them from the dominion of darkness and brought the sons that I love into the kingdom of the Son that You love.  Thank You!!  May Your Son’s sacrifice never be in vain!!

  • Matthew 5:8 – “God blesses those whose hearts are pure, for they will see God.”

Prayer:  God, bless Connor and Blake for they are pure in heart.  Let them see You!  Open the eyes of my sons, God.  Let them see wonderful things from Your law.  Do not let them live in darkness; let them always see Your light shining for them.  Do not let my sons lose sight of the blessings that You have laid out before them.  Teach them to be content and hopeful in all situations so that they will not miss opportunities to claim blessings in disguise.  Show Connor and Blake how to be led by Your word and not by their emotions.  Remind them to clothe themselves each day in Your grace and in the armor of Your word.  Let Your peace and righteousness permeate their souls and cast out any impurity.  Connor and Blake will lead pure and godly lives in constant praise of Your law and honest love for You. 

  • Job 16:17 – “Yet my hands have been free of violence and my prayer is pure.”

 Prayer:  Connor and Blake’s hands are free of violence, God, and their prayers are pure.  The righteousness of their Savior covers them; they are sin-free in Your eyes, Lord.  Jesus is Connor and Blake’s advocate.  He is their witness.  He is always interceding for my sons; He pleads for mercy on their behalf.  Jesus never turns His ear away from the cries of my sons.  Let them always remember this; stamp it on their hearts and minds forever.  Remind them to pray without ceasing because they are always heard and always answered.  You, Lord, hear their cries and You save them.  My sons know You, God; they acknowledge You and they love You in deed and in profession.  My sons love You and Your laws with sincerity and conviction; their love is true.  Connor and Blake devour every word that comes from Your mouth and they do not turn from Your ways.  

  • Proverbs 20:11 – “Even children are known by the way they act, whether their conduct is pure, and whether it is right.”

Prayer:  Though Connor and Blake are children they are known by the way they act.  Let their conduct be pure and right, God.  One day my sons will not be children and they will be fully responsible for their actions.  Please let Your laws be printed on their minds, let Your word be firmly planted in their hearts, and let their souls be deeply rooted in Your living water long before they are fully grown.  My children will be mature in Your wisdom, Lord, before they are mature in physical stature.  May everything they say and do be a reflection of Your love and laws.  Make my sons wise enough to learn what You have commanded so that they may be found pure in Your eyes.  Connor and Blake will know that You are their place of safety and their shield.  Your word is their only hope; Your name is their strong tower. 

  • Philippians 1:9-10 – “I pray that your love will overflow more and more, and that you will keep on growing in knowledge and understanding. For I want you to understand what really matters, so that you may live pure and blameless lives until the day of Christ’s return.”

Prayer:  God, let Connor and Blake’s love overflow more and more and let them keep on growing in Your knowledge and in their understanding if Your ways.  I want my sons to understand what really matters.  I want them to know that living their lives in pursuit of You and in line with Your statutes is the only way to achieve success in this life.  Engrain this concept into their hearts and minds.  Fill my sons with wisdom.  God, help Connor and Blake to live pure and blameless lives until Jesus’ return.  My sons will not chase after fleeting and meaningless pleasures.  They will stay grounded in Your word and hopeful in Your promises.  They trust in You and they will not be shaken or deceived.  They will follow in Your footsteps, Lord Jesus, and they will not falter.  For You command Your angels concerning them, God, to guard them in all their ways.  They will not strike their feet upon stones.  No disasters will come near their dwelling places.  No temptation will overcome them.  They will remain in You and You will remain in them.

  • Psalm 119:9 – “How can a young person stay pure? By obeying your word.”

Prayer:  Connor and Blake stay pure while they are young and into old age by obeying Your word, Lord.  Your teachings are wonderful,     and my sons respect them all.  Understanding Your word brings light to their minds.  They honestly want to know everything You teach, so teach them.  Think about my sons and remember Your love for them.  Be kind to them for they love Your name and Your statutes are their counselors.   Keep your promises to them and don’t let them stumble or let sin control their lives.  Protect them from the evil one so that they can obey Your laws and live in peace and safety.

  • Philippians 2:15 – “So that no one can criticize you. Live clean, innocent lives as children of God, shining like bright lights in a world full of crooked and perverse people.”

Prayer:  Father, don’t let Connor and Blake be criticized; they live clean and innocent lives as Your sons.  They shine like bright lights in this world full of crooked and perverse people.  They will not turn from Your laws; they will continue to work out their salvation with fear and trembling.  It is You, God, who works in my sons; will them to act in order to fulfill Your good purpose.  Help them to do everything without grumbling  or arguing so that they will shine among the corrupt like stars in the sky.  Let Connor and Blake hold firmly to Your word for it is life and health to their bodies.  Let them go where You have called them and let their attitudes and actions be pleasing in Your sight, God, so that they may rejoice when Your Son returns.

I am a Mother In Action – Part 1

I am a mother in action.  I will not lie down and hope for the best when it comes to my children and their futures.  I will fight for them; I will call upon the power of Heaven and claim the authority given to me by Jesus Christ.  I have learned how to use the only weapon in the war for my children’s souls:  the word of God

After going through such a struggle to keep my son, Connor, alive I began to see parenting as a war.  Satan does not want my children to grow up with knowledge of God, covered in the blood of the lamb and armed with the truth.  He is the enemy of their souls and he has come to steal, kill and destroy.  He is totally opposed to the family and everything it stands for.  As a mom, I want my children to know God, to become born again Christians and to live under the protection of the blood of the lamb.  God has given everyone tools to live successful, happy, peaceful, wise, protected, blessed lives.  The Bible is full of promises for each and every one of God’s children to stand on.  I believe that my children are my greatest legacy and as such it is my duty as a mother to bring them up in the way that they should go and to constantly fight in the spirit for their lives.  I have put together some scriptures and prayers compiled from books I have read and my own prayer time with God; below is Part 1. 

I pray that this helps you on your journey to becoming a parent in action

  1. Dedicate your children to God on a regular basis; give your children to Him (1 Samuel 1:27-28)

Þ     Speak it:  Tell God that your children are not yours; they are His.  Tell God that you are giving your children to Him to do His work. 

Þ    Let us pray –

“God, thank you for the gift of my children; as your word says, “the fruit of the womb is a reward,” I believe this is true.  My children are a great blessing to me God; thank you!  You are so good to me Lord; I want to be good to you.  I want to bring you good, not harm, all the days of my life.  Because of this, I want to raise godly children, children that will do your work.  I want my children to be a light in this world; to bring people into your kingdom.  I give them to you; use them God.” 

2.    Declare yourself to be in full partnership with God in raising your kids; depend on God to enable you to raise your children properly and he will see to it that your children’s lives are blessed.

Þ     Ask God to make you a better person so that you can be a role model for your children.  As in Luke 2:52 – Ask God to let you increase in wisdom and stature or discipline, and in favor with God and man. 

Þ     Ask God to give you an extra measure of love, compassion, wisdom, courage, strength, energy, patience, and peace.  Tell him that you NEED to be the best person you can be and your husband NEEDS to be the best person he can be in order to be the best parents that you can be.  Tell God that you are not a perfect person, and that you cannot be a perfect parent.  But recognize that HE is the perfect parent.  Tell him that you need guidance in raising your kids.  That without him you will fall short.  You need him to fill in the gaps in your parenting.  You need him to teach you to be the best parent you can be, the parent your children need you to be. 

Þ     Scriptural Reference: 

  • “Give me understanding, that I may keep Your law; yes, I will observe it with my whole heart.” Psalm 119:34
  • “For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives.”  Colossians 1:9
  • “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.” Galatians 5:22-23
  • “May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.”  Psalm 19:14
  • “I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.”  Psalm 119:11

Þ     Let us pray –

“God show me my faults.  Shine a light on the areas in my life that need change.  Give me the tools to change these areas.  Work in me Lord.  Create in me a new heart, a heart that desires to follow you.  Teach me your ways.  Show me how to live a life that is pleasing to you.  I want to be a good role model for my children and for my husband.  I want to walk with you.  I want to know you better.  Fill me up with your spirit God.  Show me how to love my children how you love your children.  God please partner with my husband and me in raising our children.  We are only human; we cannot be the people let alone the parents you have called us to be on our own.  Let your word dwell in us richly Lord producing every good fruit in our lives.  Teach us to plant a seed in our kids that would produce good fruit in their lives.  Guide us in showing our kids your face.  I want our kids to see you in us.  Continue to discipline us so that we may always grow in grace and wisdom Lord.  Teach us to discipline our kids so that they too will continue to grow in grace and wisdom.  Thank you God that we may come boldly before your throne with our requests; we are not worthy of your unfailing love.  Thank you God for your goodness and mercy; please continue to make your face shine upon us, to grant us peace.  Guide us through our journey as parents; love us so that we may love our kids.  Let the meditations of our hearts and the words of our mouths be pleasing in your sight so that our children may also learn to live lives that are pleasing to you.  Help us to raise children that will one day do great things for Your kingdom God; it is all for Your glory God.  Thank you Lord that we remember that.  We love you!  Amen!”

Stay tuned in for Part 2…

Create in Him a New Heart, O God

A Heart for Mommy From Blakey 2/11

“I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh,” Ezekiel 36:26. 

God!  Create in my son a NEW HEART, a WHOLE and HEALTHY heart!  God, I believe that you have given Blake a new heart.  A strong heart!  I claim it now!  I believe it!  My faith HAS HEALED Blake!  He is my son and I am claiming healing for him just as I claimed your healing for Connor.  You created in Connor a new lung.  You gave him life when there was only death and sickness.  You gave him health.  I believe that you have done the same for Blake!  I REFUSE to accept less!  We will see with our eyes tomorrow at the doctor what we know in our hearts to be true!  What I see in my faith, in my spirit, I will see with my eyes! 

Lord you are FAITHFUL!  You are TRUE!  You uphold ALL of your promises!  You promised life and health and that is ALL that I accept for my children, for my husband, for our family, for myself!  Sickness, imperfections, defects, diseases and death have NO place here!!  Where you are, there can be no darkness Lord!  You live in Blake!  You are Jehovah Rapha.  You are the great physician!  You have healed Blake’s heart.  He is made whole in you.  He will tell of your mighty works.  He will praise you alone, O Lord, as will Connor, Nick, and I!  Blake will tell his generation what you have done for him.  To you be all the glory!  You reign!  Glory in the highest you reign!  Every knee shall bow and every tongue proclaim that Jesus reigns!

You are mighty to save Lord.  Ventricular septal defects have NO PLACE in my son’s heart!  You have saved Blake!  We accept his healing!  I do not accept anything but the best for him!  Though the defect is not hindering his growth or causing any other problems it is not of God!  I do not accept anything for my son that is not of God.  Lord God you are exalted forever.  Your name is above all names.  Your name is POWER!  I proclaim this power to be used to heal my son’s heart and I BELIEVE that he is HEALED! 

Thank you God for a manifestation of the healing I believed for!  Thank you that you created in my son a NEW heart!  I LOVE YOU GOD!!!!

I Love You, You Little Nut

He calls himself “old man”

I dropped my old man off at preschool this morning and thanks to my grandpa picking fat baby up beforehand we arrived somewhat early.  As we pulled into the parking lot I couldn’t help but chuckle; my O.M. was very opinionated about his appearance this morning.  He simply had to wear his cowboy hat which he crookedly squished to the top of his head and a whistle on a yellow lanyard hung around his neck.  Before I had the chance to unbuckle his car seat he gave his whistle one last ear-piercing blow and beamed up at me; I love him.  Once unbuckled, he took my hand in his adorable, little one and waited for me to lead him inside (we don’t walk through a parking lot without holding hands, he might “get hit by a car and die” – as he so candidly puts it). 

As we approached the church (his preschool is located in a church) O.M. decided it was time to “race” inside!  As we “raced” my heart melted at the look of determination mixed with joy on his sweet, little face as he ran toward the door.  After congratulating him on his win, we made our way down the whimsically decorated hall to the restrooms for a quick wash and then we were off to his classroom. 

March is officially here!  It looked as though my O.M.’s teachers had been busy taking down any trace of February left hanging in their class.  Bye-bye pink and red, bye-bye hearts!  Hello green and yellow, hello shamrocks!  After signing him in, I hung up his red pullover and Buzz Lightyear backpack in his very own little cubby, complete with his precious picture and name tag.  

O.M. and I made our way from his cubby to the table situated in the center of the room where Mrs. P. was rolling out freshly made, green play-doh for the preschoolers to play with.  O.M. took a seat at the table and quickly grabbed a small, yellow, play knife to shape his mound of play-doh while I grabbed a small mound of my own; I couldn’t resist!  The play-doh was still warm and it smelled wonderful, it had that comforting smell that only homemade play-doh has.  My family loves play-doh!  As I was mindlessly rolling the beautiful, green play-doh in my hands O.M.’s teachers started to giggle to one another. 

Mrs. F. asked Mrs. P.  if she had told me the story that O.M. told them last week; my heart sank a little.  As Mrs. P. explained that she had not told me the story I began to feel a little nervous.; I quickly interjected.  “It wasn’t an inappropriate story, was it,” I asked?  “Oh no.  Nothing like that, it was actually cute.  We wrote it down for you.  You should put it in his baby book,” explained Mrs. F.  I was totally relieved!  Sometimes my incredibly imaginative son says the most inappropriate things!  How inappropriate can a 3-year-old be?  Apparently very inappropriate; he comes by it naturally of course, I am his mother.  Let me give you an example.  My son LOVES soda.  He doesn’t get it much but when he does, look out!  One particularly sugary afternoon, maybe a month ago,  O.M. was running around the house telling wild stories as usual.  But one story in particular caught my attention; brace yourselves and bear in mind, he had no idea how disgusting and strange his comment was.  He said, “Mommy, sometimes when I drink soda, candy explodes out of my pee pee into my mouth and then candy explodes out of my butt into the potty”.  Now you understand why I was having a mini panic attack when his teachers casually informed me that O.M. had told them a story.  Anyway, O.M. told his teachers about a little incident we had at home last week while preparing for a weekend in Grand Lake with my in-laws.

O.M. and fat baby were in the tub and I was at the sink curling my hair.  It had been a long and tiring day and it was only 4 p.m.  I was letting the boys take a long bath so I could finish my hair and so they would be content and in one place for more than 5 minutes.  O.M. and fat baby were playing together so well!  I actually thought to myself, “I am one lucky mom”!  Then, as if someone flipped a switch, they were fighting.  O.M. took a toy from fat baby, fat baby splashed O.M. in the face, the list goes on.  I tried my best to squash the brewing bath-time brawl and get on with fixing my hair and for a short time my plan worked.  Then O.M. started aggravating his brother again.  Luckily, fat baby seemed to ignore it.  I warned O.M. that if he kept aggravating his brother he would be sorry but my warnings fell on deaf ears.  Just as I turned back around to face the mirror I heard O.M. scream at the top of his lungs.  I looked over to see him stand up and turn bright red.  Amidst the hysterical crying and blood curdling screams I managed to figure out what had happened.  Fat baby finally had enough of his big brother’s antics and decided to take revenge into his own hands in the form of his own type of corporal punishment.  He bit O.M. on the butt!!  My sweet, baby boy has always been a bit of a biter but this was over the line even for him! 

Apparently having “a chunk bitten out of his butt” scarred my old man so much that he felt it necessary to share his horrifying experience  at school.  This is how he told the story to his teachers: “I was takin’ a bath with fat baby and I kept pokin’ him and pokin’ him and I didn’t stop so he bit a chunk out of my butt!  My baby thought my butt was macaroni and cheese”!

After leaving the preschool I got in my car and headed to work.  I smiled the whole way there, thinking of what a creative, funny, special gift I have in my O.M.; I am looking forward to the laughter-filled years ahead. 

Thank you God for choosing me to be his mom!  Guide me in training him in the way he should go, teach me how to nurture his creativity and show me how to love him.  But most of all, let me always see what a blessing he truly is!  Amen!